दिल की बातें, सीधे से

Basant aata nahi, bulayaa jaata hai

On the dusty roads of Shantiniketan Early one morning and Late one evening Meet those lovers separated long time back, in that authors book leaving reasons behind and uncovering those secrets They see each other now caring for no one The lady bird, flies all over the town spreading her wings wide In the cradles of winds Now can nobody claim to be her own, but just that one ..... The flavor still lingers And I woke up, Was it just a dream?

While warming my tea and sipping it todat morning, it finally struck me. Why nothing ever makes me completely happy and satisfied. Now I know -It is just me. I am on maternity leave and I still have 4 weeks left. I plan to join back for atleast 3 months and then I plan to quit and stay home. So far it is fine, but the problem begins when the guilt of leaving my kids for 12 hrs a day starts hurting me and at the same time I also regret missing the business training I midded while I was on leave. That could have helped me going to next level...not that I do not enjoy taking my 5 year old for soccer classes, my heart swell with pride as he reads the book in library sitting with me. My 2 month old steals my heart away with every smile and so many times I felt moisture in my eyes. But then again.... It is wrong if I want this and that as well. If my heart can not be content with one thing. I want to find out my worth in the world while I also want to attend every easter/christmas or valenti